10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now:

1. Sometimes I don't know who you are, but most the time I have a strong firm idea. One thing I will always know, I tell you every day. I cry every time we part, because I'm a wimp. I wonder how you feel for me every day, even though you tell me. I always feel the way i tell you I do, I cannot lie to you. You're the closest person on the earth to me right now, and that alone makes me smile, not to mention how cute you are when we are together. I love you. And Muscly.
2. I wish you'd call more. With such a distance between us, it makes it hard to keep such a friendship alive. Of coarse I text you every now and then, but it isn't the same. I feel awkward with anticipation whenever we end up in the same state. Hanging out is and will be a blast.
3. I lost the game, thanks. Wow, we hardly see each other, but thanks to school, we can hang out for a bit. I don't know anything thats happening in your life save for what i read on the internet. We should hang out sometime, seriously.
4. I'm terrible, I'm sorry.. I don't see how you can still call me a friend after all the crap I pull. I keep trying to get better with you, but i always make the mistake that slips off the ice and pushes you further away.
5. Hey, you stopped talking to me one day, and I haven't heard from you since. I've never been the initiative type, and the last few weeks we talked to each other, I had to start those conversations. Are you mad at me? Tired of me? You use to be my old best friend, what happened?
6. STOP SMOKING! This one goes out to all my friends who smoke D:<
7. We hardly know each other, but you're a really cool person and I want to be a better friend. Sure we've known each other for a couple of years, but we hardly talk in that time, and don't know anything about the other. Convenience seems to always be a card in between our friendship.
8. I'm sorry that we hardly talk, I've been using the internet less and less, and I'm procrastinating more and more. But hey, I'll stop procrastinating and start working on my character soon enough. I'm nearly done anyway.
9. God, I ignore you too much for such a good friend you are. And it isn't that I'm ignoring you, its that I just can't get myself to visit and hang out; I'm lazy, I'm sorry. If you want to hang out, let me know. Let me know how you're doing, let me in the loop.
10. Calm down, your life may be bad, but you need to look to the positive in life. Even if there isn't one, you can always imagine. I know I say this a lot, but take action for your life, you need to kick out the pirates called life getting in your way, and take back control of the S.S. Your Life.

9 things people may not know about you:

1. I'm bi-romantical; I think gay couples and straight couples are cute together.
2. I'm abstinent and clean of everything; no nicotine, no alcohol, nothing illegal, and an attempt to avoid anything legal that might cause harm to my body.
3. I'm easily swayed by anyone, please don't manipulate me.
4. I'm not an insomniac, but i wish i were so I could spend more time with Steff.
5. I am a pervert often, and always hate it when I am just afterwards, realizing what a dick I am.
6. I'm fat on the inside, even if I'm only slightly over-weight on the outside.
7. I love childish things.
8. I'm very feminine for a mostly-straight guy.
9. I'm a pacifist.

8 ways to win your heart:

1. Acknowledge my existence
2. Dont lie to me
3. Be a good friend
4. give me things to do
5. at least want to spend time with me
6. be honest about me
7. bring me up when I'm down
8. be difficult to cling to

7 things that cross your mind a lot:

1. Oh, god, I hope Steff is doing well..
2. I wonder how [random friend] is doing?
3. Why am i such an idiot.
4. That was lame, why did I do that?
5. if I wasn't such a coward, i'd be ecstatic and skipping right now.
6. I'm so socially awkward..
7. God I hope no-one is staring at me.

6 things you do before you fall asleep:

1. cry
2. lay down
3. talk to someone special to me
4. review my day
depending on the type of day
5. Wish I were dead
6. Be glad to be alive

5 things you notice in the opposite sex:

1. Friendships
2. eyes
3. kindness
4. comicality
5. facial features

4 things you wish you never did/had:

1. October 30st, 2003
2. March 8th, 2008
3. December 22nd, 2008
4. January 28th, 2009

3 songs to describe your life:

1. Too Much Time On My Hands by Styx
2. Ment To Live by Switchfoot
3. Never Turn Back by Crush 40

2 things you want to do before you die:

1. Make the world a better place by befriending everyone with each other
2. taste led

one confession:
I started reading journals again, and now i feel left out. Hell, I hate it when i dont get envolved in peoples life. I like the idea of being related to everyone. I want to be your brother, let me in people. I'm sorry, sometimes it feels like i dont care, sometimes it seems like im ignoring you, but I'm not. I'm just awkward and end up doing something at the absolute wrong moment, depending on the situation. I'm an idiot, people, sorry. And for those of you who have my phone number, I wish you would call me more often without having to ask you to.